Tuesday, November 06, 2012
我的痛你又怎会了解
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:06 AM
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Every second that passes.I feel that i die a little more.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
4:45 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012
还是别指望了到最后我可以不爱了
你却说舍不得..
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
9:02 PM
既然如此, 那就这样吧.
人
就只能尽心尽力
问心无愧
但值不值得..
也许永远都不会知道吧
那就这样吧
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
3:51 PM
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Let it be.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
12:50 PM
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
到不了那所谓的美好
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
5:09 PM
Thursday, October 04, 2012
If you can't fight it, then join in and outshine.Be that person.
I can be that person.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
3:35 PM
"my priority is you"
But sadly, how small Are the boundaries for me.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
2:37 PM
Wednesday, October 03, 2012
忍一时风平浪静退.. 就真的不能再退了.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
4:39 PM
Do i really know better?
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
4:37 PM
Words are so easy to say.
What's real, what's not?
How do we tell anymore..
Why is it so tiring..
Everything would be so much easier if it can all be taken at face value.
Yet even on face value.. What's there..?
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:05 AM
Tuesday, October 02, 2012
That's just such a fucked up person really.Worst still, to be one and hate it when others think that of you.
Facts are facts, no?
Fucked up staring right into my face!!
So why am i still here, holding on to you like a lifeline?!
Then i realise, i must be the most fucked up then.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
5:46 PM
Monday, October 01, 2012
Whatever will happen, will happen.That's why there's never a reason to restrict anyone from doing anything they want.
What's the point?
If you mattered, there wouldn't be an issue in the first place.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
6:40 PM
Monday, September 17, 2012
Maybe there's only so much one can take.Everybody has different tolerance levels, yes.
And that is sometimes affected by the concessions one gives to the other based on whatever experience or affection there is.
I have gone so far, so far.
Given so much, so much.
It's like banging yourself in the wall, at every turn.
Why?
Why is it that i see that this is all unnnecessary pain, but you don't?
Why is it even necessary to go through this pain?
Is it only me who can see past it all, see what could have been and appreciate what there was?
Is nothing worth it? Really?
Sometimes, there really is no reason why.
Ultimately, we are all alone.
Maybe sometimes love just ain't enough.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
2:12 PM
Friday, September 14, 2012
Hiding behind the sunnies.The eyes with so much sadness.
Tragic.
Maybe i'll never know what it really is.
But it was as real as it was.
Why?
From so much.
To nothing at all.
Let it go?
Just let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.
Tell me how to let it go...
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
12:18 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Why.I feel like i did no wrong.
But.
Maybe sometimes in life, not all things can be explained.
Maybe there won't be an answer for everything.
Maybe some people will always get away with everything.
No rhyme nor reason.
The harder you fight, the faster you sink.
Maybe there really is a not meant to be. Call it a self-fulfilling prophecy if you may.
I have already given up. Given up on hope.
Now let the dying begin.
Slowly and painfully.
Just the way i chose it to be right from the start.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
9:54 AM
Friday, September 07, 2012
Can't help the things we can't help.But do we have to let these kill us?
It's been an emotional turmoil these days.
What with the flu and cold sore and all :(
Now what..?
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:56 AM
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
Can't help the things we can't help.It's really so hard, but you just gotta have faith sometimes.
Afterall, what else is there to believe in?
Just be yourself.
And not let the actions of others affect who you really are, and who you can be.
Why give unnecessary things your time of the day? And get nowhere with it.
Breathe. Everything in its time and stride. Give yourself a chance to live in the moment.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:48 PM
Monday, August 27, 2012
Don't push it.Really. Don't.
There's just this fucking insane thing about people. That the now is never enough, somehow. Somehow you will always see further, expect further, want further.
Stop. Really.
Revel in the now please.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
3:24 PM
Thursday, August 16, 2012
everyday is a battle.with myself.
what's right? what's wrong?
i'm starting to think that i can't tell the difference anymore.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
5:40 PM
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
If there's ever a piece of advice that would be good for now,That would be to wait.
Wait.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
2:25 PM
Monday, July 30, 2012
以退为进.明哲保身.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
9:35 AM
Saturday, July 07, 2012
this too, will come to pass. -- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:20 AM
Wednesday, July 04, 2012
To the future me:One day, you will look back on this and laugh.
You know how much tolerance and leeway you gave in this. It wasn't an easy path indeed. But somehow and for whatever reason that you will no longer feel valid, you stuck through with it. And with it, you emerged stronger. You should be proud. How many others could have gone through what you did and still smile? How many could have tolerated it all and not made the least bit of fuss like you did?
Today is the day that you look back on this. And laugh. It is no loss to you and you saved yourself from a rest of the lifetime pain that could have been.
Now.. Live. Laugh. Love again.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
5:40 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2012
so everybody's right.this wasn't for me in the first place.
and now, i face my own consequences.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:31 AM
Sunday, July 01, 2012
I didn't dare ask.For fear of reality if i did.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:22 PM
Monday, June 25, 2012
didn't even have the chance to. -- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:13 PM
Saturday, June 16, 2012
it's a sad thing really.to be crying over non-spilt milk.
and be the only one crying over it.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
4:27 PM
can you help me remember how to smile;
make it somehow all seem worthwhile.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:56 PM
tears are working overtime.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
9:43 AM
Friday, June 15, 2012
i will always have to walk past that empty spot. -- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:46 PM
so here we are again.
like deja vu.
from everything agaib,
to nothing at all.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:43 PM
this is hell.
through and through.
i need to get out of here.
but sadly, i can never run far away enough.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:42 PM
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:41 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2012
there is no love.you know that, right?
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:46 AM
Thursday, May 17, 2012
say hello to cuteness :)
it's kitty time at maccers!!!
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:00 PM
i love phone calls.
i love the physical being there, even if there's nothing to talk about.
especially so in this digital age, where people just whatsapp all the time.
(well, maybe that's better than nothing i guess)
but it's weird how i've had much experience with various people over overnight calls, with us all falling asleep on the phone almost all of the times.
was there so much to say? or do we seek comfort in the late nights feeling someone there?
and if we were already so tired, why do we not just bid each other goodnight and hang up before we sleep?
why the choice to hang around, even when one party or even both parties have fallen asleep?
i'm such a light sleeper.
i may finally fall asleep,
but the slightest shuffling will wake me up.
that's how i heard you waking up, and then disconnecting the line.
i threw my earpiece aside and fell asleep thereafter though.
but i think it's funny.
imagine you saying "hello?" at that point,
and me managing to say "ya?"
as if we hadn't spent the last 3 hours just listening to air between us.
damn LOL.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:00 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
i know.i know in some sense, yes i'm lucky.
whined about eggs benny a little, and off i got whisked off to Prive for a nice and peaceful lunch in the middle of the workday, in the middle of the work-week.
had to OT till late, and subsequently was whisked off to KLP to buy dinner back to office, without even asking for it.
and i know too.. besides today, i'm also lucky judging by the sheer number of people who know where i live. that's how many people who sends me back home, despite it not necessarily being on the way.
in life, you get lucky in some ways yes. but you win some, you lose some.
sometimes, the happier i get, even just the teeniest little bit more, the more worried i get about losing.
afterall, the higher you get, the harder you fall.
but in the now, i'm thankful.
and i really do hope for the best.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:00 PM
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
i wonder what happened indeed..even though i'm not on the losing end.
well, at least not for now.
back to spans for vball tuesday
but Troy and Dennis are back in action,
and it's good to see all of them after such a long time :)
vball session was alright.. from 2.15m yesterday to 2.43m tonight whoaa
but the new lovely shoes biting on my unhealed blisters. sigh.
i definitely need to get higher cut socks damnn :(
received the bad news though
very worried and sad that this had to happen
but at least it doesn't seem very severe
hopefully the pain will subside and everything will be alright soon..
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
Monday, May 14, 2012
it's the Public Service Beach Volleyball Tournament tonightmy first try at beach volley really, and at night! hooray for man-made courts!
we managed to win MOH, MOE and then MCYS! surprise surprise indeed.
and i must say, it's been really quite fun on the sand too :)
not the best end to the night though.
but disappointment in itself is a pain one gets used to.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:21 PM
Sunday, May 13, 2012
act on a whim.and that's being true to self.
i hope.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:22 PM
ok, now i'm really tired.
back aches.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
12:00 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2012
us. it's been a long time.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
no training this week.
suddenly empty.
force sleep.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
4:00 PM
Friday, May 11, 2012
bday lunch with the colleagues..谢谢大家的疼爱 :)
worked late (boooo!) before C picked me up for dinner at Lagoon
first time that i'm having gong gongs haha
it's been a long, tiring week at work indeed.
how about a break..?
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2012
it's a very bad day at work. -- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
Wednesday, May 09, 2012
MC day.early lunch with min & zhen before catching the finals.
brought back memories indeed.
a long afternoon there before we all left and hung out at the shabu shabu place :)
back to face reality tomorrow :(
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:00 PM
my boss. SO ARGHHH.
i left for training anyway,
which didn't go too well with the court booking screwup.
C sent me back to office at 10.30pm after,
where we ran into the boss (WTH) leaving.
managed to do some decent work till 1.30am,
before C sent me home.
i guess i would have been terrified in the office alone that late, if otherwise.
thanks a lot for the company.. appreciate it :)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
2:30 AM
Tuesday, May 08, 2012
Dave picked me up at work for my bday lunch @Sushi Tei.
always happy to catch him, despite his busy schedule :)
miss the old times..
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
4:54 PM
Monday, May 07, 2012
cos i need to try harder than others.
at least, try.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
i walked into it myself.
i only have myself to blame.
and i'll have to manage the consequences myself.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
8:57 PM
It will never be over.
and it's just too hard.
for me.
I just want to walk away.
the so many definitions of 'friends'.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
6:52 PM
Sunday, May 06, 2012
up early to visit the sinseh's and doc's with zhen..totally understand the agony of the back injury
sure hope it helps, and nothing major's the problem :(
still nursing a flu, and slept most part of the afternoon away.
argh. so not looking forward to work tmr.
it's gonna be 8.30am-6.00pm of workplan seminar omg.
i really need something to look forward to.
see no light. sigh.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
9:42 PM
Saturday, May 05, 2012
probably the last time training with the NY girls before their finals
am very confident that they will pull it off certainly :)
it's been a good time training with them!
training went very well indeed and i'm happy!
but much to improve on :)
dinner @Changi V with min, zhen and sneaky after..
i sure will miss all these sat trainings after everything's over.
just like how i used to miss seeing everyone 4 times a week whilst training.
ok that's the emo talking.
good night.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:00 PM
Friday, May 04, 2012
Friday morning at Pasir Ris SRC for Team SSC Day 2012
afterwhich we kinda snuck off early for lunch at IKEA :P
Gen choosing the perfect pup~
Short jog with Jon, before some hoop shooting~
Home for a quick shower before Brian came to pick me up to celebrate our bdays :)
So tired when the night ended that i kept dozing off in the car... hee :x
Looking forward to tmr :)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
Thursday, May 03, 2012
Received a surprise this morning in office, from Sharon..
First time i have received lilies though hehe
Thank you for the gifts!! :D
took half-day off today and caught Avengers, with zhennie :)
awesomeeeeeeee show! loved Tony Stark and the Hulk!!
Hehehehe!
Reached Bishan Active Beach Court early,
so we spent some time at the playground
and just sat and chatted until my team arrived after work :)
Glad for the company..
the night ended on a weird and not very nice note,
but beach was not that bad, better than i expected.
the one beach training with the SSC peeps before the matches begin 14 May..
all in all, i did have a wonderful day :)
thank you, for everything :)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:15 PM
Wednesday, May 02, 2012
it's normal to feel emo before/on your birthday, right?? -- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
Birthday celebration after work with ah goh @Paul's Bakery & Cafe :)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:00 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
Lunch celebration with the girls @Riders Cafe
Thanks for all the gifts and goodies from Japan! :)
and then it's time for dad's bday celebration!
a mint cake!
Happy Birthday to my dear daddy!! :D
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
it's an awesome long weekend :)
on leave today, bought a cake for daddy's bday tmr,
and dim sum-ed with zhen & sneaky, again!
bday drinks after..
first to Mr Punch and then hopped over to En :)
too much too much too much sake!
i had fun, but seriously i couldn't keep my eyes on the road at all,
so luckily, she's a very experienced drunk driver? oops.
clasping my hand for the entire trip was tricky (and amusing),
considering that it's a manual-drive sports convertible :P
but it gave me comfort, like an anchor in the deep sea.
solace solace. take what you can get.
so in much light-headedness and hugs, good night, good night.
and i hope reality doesn't suck that much in the morning.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
9:30 AM
Monday, April 30, 2012
gawd.. my back's been hurting again.
yes, i jogged despite it, but i'm starting to feel v insecure about my back indeed :(
and my arm. it's really not the arm i used to have.. feels strengthless. argh.
this pain, we can only accept and work with to the best of our abilities..
time is not in our hands.
on a happier note, my new vball shoes have arrived from Nippon!
less than a week after i ordered them.. and they're just so.... PERFECT!!!
loving the mid-cut :D
woohoo!!!
Wave Jump TR4!
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
12:38 PM
Sunday, April 29, 2012
gai gai-ed before training at bishan/nex :)
what a swelteringly hot day omg...
but even though only zhen, sneaky, xueer and i turned up,
training went very well indeed!
hoping for even better times to come :)
till the next time we meet....
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
1:25 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2012
this is my Facebook Inbox page
i know any every other person has pages that look like mine too
but for someone who doesn't post explicitly or regularly,
this is really weird.
it's a weird world out there...
(p/s: 'cept for Tina of course)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
9:53 AM
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
it was a long Tuesday with training after work,
followed by some red wine conveniently just opposite the court.
and this morning, breakfast was already waiting for me downstairs at 7.30am!
i don't even wake up that early for work..... :x
and no, i didn't wake up at 6.30am today just to prove a point!
okie, maybe a bit. Haa!
i love breakfast though, when i really have time for it :)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
9:54 AM
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong, and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t come back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain.
—
Henry Rollins
Henry Rollins
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:11 AM
Monday, April 23, 2012
are you allowing the darkness in your life to feed you or infuriate you? -- yeSterday oNce mOre...
12:21 PM
Sunday, April 22, 2012
a lazy sunday.
better spent out gai gai-ing at new found places than at home..
(note to self: buck up, be happy, and don't drag others, esp those you love, down with you.)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:30 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2012
fell sick. immune system down these days.
headed Nthpt to meet zhen before training
which didn't go exceptionally well today
but finally full attendance!
things will get better..
dinner at Marche, not much appetite.
Sentosa Boardwalk and then the Crane Dance at RWS
beautiful fireworks!
and then a really long way home, not literally.
some things, unexplainable, not beacuse i don't want to, but i don't know how.
I've got nothing to say.
i too wish for strength to cope.
and i too hope for the best.
i understood.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
sneaky picked me up after work to settle our dim sum craving!
first proper dinner in days... it was goooooood :)
except for the liu sha bao.. already exploded when served (do not order this again)!
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:30 PM
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
brusselsprouts after work.
3 pints 3 pints 3 pints.
been long since the last drink.
monday night no less.
and then back home in the usual fashion,
with the top down and wind whipping our hair,
streetlights adorning the dark sky that knows no end.
good night, good night.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2012
life has plenty of good parts.
but it's the rough parts
that make you thankful you have people to share it with
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
10:17 PM
achyyyyyyy.
feels good to get a really good workout though.
but age sure is catching up,
it's a different level of play now.
but for as long as i'm able to maintain this,
i'm happy :)
the harder it gets, the harder you need to try.
need to work more on the fitness!
i always hate to disappoint,
i like to make and see people happy.
:)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
3:51 PM
it was a good good day :)
zhen picked me up at home early
and we went exploring the new Changi City Point
quite a pretty little place, with Nike & Adidas Factory Outlets!
spent a quiet little afternoon there before heading for training,
which essentially only me, zhen & sneaky showed up haa
training went splendid though, and i thought us 3 did play very well :)
Partyworld was like $30/pax for 2 hours though. madness!
and all in all a day well spent, the way it could have been best spent.
sweet :)
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
3:00 AM
Thursday, April 12, 2012
then maybe i've changed.as life gets going, and you get more jaded,
sometimes you just don't want to have to deal with things if you can help it.
indifference is a scary thing to behold indeed.
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
11:30 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
off to a good start :)
anti-inflammatory jab. checked!
rest from vball. checked!
double-skipped after a simple dinner. checked!
not too bad for someone who hasn't picked up the rope in ages.
managed 20 double-skips at one go x 5 sets :)
to be continued!
today was one of the good days.
not just cos i managed to go off work on time,
or that i kept to my exercise routine (above)
work was alright, and skipped lunch for a 1.5hr vball session in the gym
just receiving, no spiking! so i still kept to what doc ordered ya
and someone beside me growling whenever i even had the slightest inclination to raise my arm to set/spike haha
had plain corn as a late lunch, but it was nice still!
and much little talks in between at work :)
where we've all suddenly fallen into a comfortable phase
the little pleasures in life..
-- yeSterday oNce mOre...
12:07 AM
